Fiona's

Maybe we're running away from the hopeless emptiness of the whole life here.
Plenty people are on the emptiness, but it takes real guts to see the hopelessness.

走出店外，她頭也不回的招了輛計程車，要司機以最快的速度駛離。
那是兩個星期前的星期四下班時刻，市區馬路上擠滿來往的車輛，計程車才離開位於Lexington分店不到五分鐘就被困在24街的車水馬龍中。

Manipulating, every second a plot
Echoing deep inside a sordid nature
Leeriness paints the true color of an eerie heart
Interlocking all on one pretentious tear

 

像是一種既定的習慣，每年到了這個時節，我總會反覆聽著這首歌曲。歌詞的內容不外乎是與愛情有關的思念情緒，女主唱的嗓音也不是我喜愛的那種類型。但不知為什麼，對於這首歌，總有說不清的莫名情感。

 


破曉時分的公園，一片如夕陽般澄黃的落葉在突然刮起的一陣風中再度離地，瞬間飄離我模糊的視線。空蕩蕩的Amsterdam Avenue，除了偶然駛過的車輛，一個人也沒有。

天黑了，四點五十八分，在下班rush hour的車陣中，最後一道日光隨著公路兩旁逐一亮起的路燈消逝在海灣的那一端。
車內的CD正放著你最愛的Rhapsody in Blue，手握著方向盤，長長的車龍以近乎停止的速度緩緩前進著。你說這曲子總讓你想起飛翔在空中的自由感受，而此刻的我卻想問，現在的你看見了怎樣的風景？有沒有像我正在想你一樣，也在想著我？

你又偷偷替我煩惱，私下幫我找解決的辦法了...
這已經不知道是第幾次了

That was a humid summer afternoon. Sitting at first row in front of all friends and family, my back was completely soaked of uneasy sweat. Though the weather wasn’t that comfortable, it couldn’t be blamed on my being heavyhearted. In fact, it was all about her, one of my best friends who was lying in a coffin with flowers around. It was all about this losing-someone-important-to-you thing that has drained my tears for the entire of my life. I was so devastated. How could she choose to leave this world without a proper good-bye? At least, I was the one who really care about her and we used to be such good friends.

 

2006. 11. 01
你花了兩天，趁我去上課時做的卡片。上頭有你可愛的塗鴉，和可愛的字跡。

原來你獨有的溫柔，從來都不曾屬於我。