Fiona's

6 am taking an early train to downtown. The sky is still gloomy with mist eddied round my heart. How can people rather choose to believe what they hear, living in lies instead of facing the truth?

I remember long ago, that carefree spring afternoon at the coner cafe, most part of me still saw things through an optimistic view. I believed this world was wonderful with people living lives full of joy. But somehow, comparing to those innocent days, that beautiful image of world was torn apart after she came up with thousands of lies. A woman full of schemes came as a fiend, manipulating and alienating people's relations. The truth is obvious but no one is going to take it.

My heart is occupied with mixed feelings of sympathy and resentment. I abhorred what she has done to this family and feel like to take revenge. But retaliation will only bring more hatred and make this feud a non-stop nightmare. Thank God, my belief helped when I almost lost my last consceience and saved me from committing sins. I don't want to become such an animal like her, living with no morality and dignity.

Yes, I do hate her. But sometimes I also feel sorry for her. Being so pathetic and insecure. Framing people, thinks so that he will always under her control. However, if your "true love" needs to be ensured by telling lots of lies, then this "true love" does sound like shit to me. Admit it. This isn't love.

This love has driven you insane, making you lost in obscure haze. Your foolish choice has caused damages, aggrieving family who truly love you. I feel sad about you. Can't you see that this love is not reciprocal. She never cares what you care. All I see is one-way sacrifice. You're the only one who cut off all connection to your family. You're the only who give up your sweet home and move out to one cold hotel room. Has she ever tried to do anything for you? Never, she never tried to mend the cracks, not even give a shit to people she hurts and for god's sake, these people are your parents. So I feel sad about you. You dare not to face the truth but remain silent and let her destroy your family. And the most ironic thing is, she still lives happily with her family. It looks like you're the one who "married to" her family.

So please wake up! I believe you've heard many people saying this to you. There is no need to pull out all the evidence cuz you know way better than anyone of us. You just can't face it. It's not easy to admit you're wrong therefore you would rather keep blinding yourself with this false happiness won't solve the sorrow deep in your heart. No need to negotiate, no need to compromise, and no need to lie. I think this sounds more like love.

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我們是多麼想一次將你搖醒，你是當局者迷還是不願面對事實。撇開她所做過的錯事客觀的說，我們都看不到她所謂的愛，你該很清楚被愛的感覺是什麼，想想那些曾經真心對你的前女友們，說真的，她們對你所做的有時會讓我替她們覺得不值，但這就是愛情，一旦愛上了，是會無止盡不求回報的付出。你想起來了嗎？那種事事以你為優先，將你家人當作自己家人來看待的愛情，現在的你，有多久沒感受到這樣被愛的幸福了呢？她對我們所做過的是一回事，但她真的沒那麼在乎你也是事實，你是可以分清楚的。你可以為了愛切割手足，但為了她連父母都不要了，這樣值得嗎？她私下做過了什麼，你是否知曉我們誰也無法確定，但我們都選擇保持沈默，不是因為不想幫你，而是正陷入其中的你是怎樣都不會聽進去的，像著了魔，為了她可以傷透所有人的心。這樣的幸福，美麗嗎？我沒辦法看到我在乎的人因為你的不智而難過，希望你能好好想想。不為了誰，就為了你將來的日子，如果愛情不是雙方面的付出，這樣的日子是很辛苦的，這次，你不再是被愛的那個，從她那所得到的有多少，我想你比誰都清楚。不然，那心裡的難過掙扎又是從何而來？雖然你對我有疙瘩，但這是我的真心話，好好想想吧。祝福你了。